tell me something new...

It seems like most people have moved on with their lives. Guys are in NS. Girls are busy moving into their dorms, choosing modules, attending orientation. I on the other hand havent quite moved on yet. I'm still stuck in my old slacking habits. Waking up past noon, watching E!, shopping, slacking, baking. Minus school, not much has changed for me over the past 2-4 years. The only difference in my life are the people. Some friends have come and gone, some wonderful old friends have stayed in my life. I have been somewhat resistant to change.

But now, I'm filled with a sense of eagerness to dive into my books, make new friends, experience a change of environment, immerse myself in a different culture etc.

Hopefully this monotony will vanish once my sister comes back. hah, preperations have already begun for her return. I just went to the market this morning to buy some crispy peanut pancakes for her. Bought a whopping 40! the wait was excruciatingly long..45 minutes.

while i was there, I found out that Singaporeans actually eat really heavy breakfasts! some of the things i saw were

-vegetarian beehoon packed with liao like luncheon meat and cabbage
-prawn noodles
-some white beehoon with orange sugar?
-mee rebus

It's quite nauseating to see people eat such things in the morning. I thought breakfast was stuff like toast, muffin, cereal, curry puff? Maybe I'm the one who's crazy...

The icing on my cupcake

Made some cupcakes today! Was really hard work and not to mention messy!


My cupcakes puffing up in the oven



I had to share the cooling rack with my mom. Somehow this picture reminds me of soldiers going to war. My poor cupcakes look so meek compared to those monstrous ugly cakes my mom made.


My first attempt at making icing.


Tadaaa!!! End product!


take a closer look...*beam*

just whip it

Finally got down to buying the stuff my dried up skin craves for!


sugar cane body whip, sugar cane body scrub, eye serum and nail polish.

HUGE damage done to my wallet..! really felt the pinch. I actually only intended on buying the body whip (people have been raving about it!) but I got suckered into buying the rest. So I ended up paying twice of what I should have. But no regrets... my skin feels so much softer (I would say 'as soft as a baby', but I know no one out there will believe me), and the smell of the body whip is just heavenly. Oh, and I'm now admiring my freshly painted red toenails :)

Bananarama ~ Love In the First Degree
Only you can set me free
'Cos I'm guilty
Guilty as a girl can be
Come on baby can't you see
I stand accused of love in the first degree
Guilty, of love in the first degree

I was so excited to hear this song on the radio today! I don't really like music from the 80s but this song just made me wanna put on some shoulder pads, grab a comb and start singing!

carnation cream pie

Amy came over and surprised me with carnations today! It was really sweet of him because he took the whole day off just to spend some time with me. :) He even sat through my whole baking session today...watching me mash bananas and cream cheese. (was making creamy banana pie which will only be ready tomorrow)


the carnations


can you guess what this is?

pies and cherry almond eyes

Had a nice relaxing today browsing through old recipe books belonging to my mom. I have made up of list of things to make over the next week or two.

- creamy banana pie
- chocolate mint cupcakes
- lemon bars
- "best-ever" chocolate cake (I'm not kidding...the book actually said 'best-ever')
- Frozen strawberry cream pie

Yes, I am very free and I'm staying true to my calling of becoming a tai tai.

On an equally relaxing and tai tai-ish note, I'm gonna buy some beer treatment wax for my hair and some good ol' moisturizer (remember the post on how my skin was becoming fish flakes?). For now, I'm just making do with some Jergens cherry almond moisturizer. I've slapped on quite a bit on my whole body and it smellls really good.

Happy 7th, we're in heaven.

7th month anniversary todayyyy!



what's with the finger?? blocking my face ah...


the fingers again. why do they look so creepy?


I made dinner for him. Starters was french onion soup. It looked really unappetizing, but i thought it tasted pretty good.


the main course - fish and chips and prawns. (my pseudo seafood platter. ha!)
I was too busy eating to take pictures of the dessert which was almond pear tart.



His present to me! it's really gorgeous and the picture simply doesn't do justice to it. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

time taken

it just occured to me last night that i have exactly 2 months left in singapore. 2 months?!?!?! where has all the time went? At the beginning of this long bumming journey, I had grand plans to travel, to learn how to whip up a storm in the kitchen, to take up yoga, to get a great job, to speak fluent french......etc.

I'm almost at the end of my holiday and I have yet to do all of that. I've been to Hongkong, I've baked a few cakes and cooked a few meals, my french has improved slightly, but that's about it. But I'm not upset at all that I haven't managed to accomplish as much as i thought I would. I really don't think any of these things are important anymore, especially since i only have 2 months left. I think right now, the most important thing is so spend the remaining time with people I love and friends i've missed.

Relationship rollercoaster

today was an interesting day to say the least. A serious rollercoaster of emotions. I have finished all the kleenex in my room, I have abrasions on my face because i wiped my face with far too much force, and a heart that's still intact. Thank Goodness.

Afterall that bullshit, the most important thing is that I'm fine now and happy. I won't go into details about what happened, but i would like to say one thing.. I'm glad I got off the relationship rollercoaster.

pack and lift off

gonna send off my parcel tomorrow. it's a huge box

contents: Milo, horlicks, instant noodles, tupperwares, hangbags, school bags, files, stationary, plug adaptors, turtlenecks, jackets, sweater, webcam, lava lamp.....etc

The peach and the pineapple

Just a picture of us :)

fair-weather / under the weather

I have made a resolution not to be a fair-weather girlfriend. I don't think it's fair to amy. All relationships go through highs and lows and I'm gonna stick around when the lows come. =)

Speaking of weather, I'm feeling under the weather but I'm really tempted to take my rollerblades out and go around my estate. Hmmm, have i mentioned that I'm thinking of joining the rollerblading club in uni? I think it'll be really nice to go rollerblading in the parks especially in such cool weather.

Anyway, all my friends are shopping (with amazing gusto) for their university clothes. It wasn't until yesterday did I ask myself exactly what I should buy for uni. How do people dress over there for school? I don't want to be the only one dressed in baggy frumpy sweaters. I think I'll use the time where everyone's in school to go hunt down some nice stuff.

Gawd...my skin feels so tight and dry. I guess that's what happens when you camp in your dark air-conditioned room watching sex and the city and eating preserved orange peel.

what's happening to me!! I used to go out in the sun and play games, I used to enjoy the idea of hitchhiking or camping. But now, i'm the epitome of a couch potato. I love days at home...sleeping, eating, watching channel E, and making popcorn. People actually call me up to spend slacking days together.

my room's a mess...i can't even find my damn moisturizer.

TV hung

Been spending quite alot of time with marcus lately. AND, I'm proud to say that I've converted him into a sex and the city fan! Although I don't think he can appreciate manolo blahniks or the nifty outfits they wear, but I think he enjoys watching their lifestyles and their witty jokes.

On the topic of sex and the city, I think I'm a Miranda. -- Cynical about love and armed with a sarcastic sense of humour. The boyfriend, on the other hand, insists that I'm like charlotte.
That is such a cringe-able (i know there's no such word lah) statement. She's bloody irritating. I hate the fact that she's so perfectly poised and goody goody. She should just break the rules.

As much of a satc fan I am, I just can't bring myself to watch all the episodes again for the 6th time. So, I'm currently downloadng 'fat actress'! Just watched a few trailers and Kirstie Alley's performance has so far been nothing short of wonderful.





Ok, enough talk about tv shows. It's 5.30am and I'm still up. My dad said that I'm running on london time already. Hah!

lionel deluy

(more pictures here: http://www.lioneldeluy.com/)

only managed to meet up with lu for lunch today because a certain someone pang seh-ed us for the 2nd time. Why do people bother organising get togethers when their schedule is already so tight? I really dont understand it at all. I feel quite strongly about this but i shan't continue lest i sound confrontational.

On a happier note, I took out my navel ring. The piercing was really infected and it hurt to lie on my tummy. Now I can hug people and not worry that their belts are gonna rip off the ring =) Hmm, i actually really really like piercings. I wanna get a tongue piercing but I'm too scared. The tongue is so thick! Nose piercings are out of the question for me. I'll look like a bull since i have a blobby nose. And eyebrow piercings are just ugly.

to everyone who smsed me regarding amy and I: thanks for all your concern. Everything is perfect now and I couldn't be happier. =)

happy cakes

I removed the angry post of me because i do not want to be reminded of what happened. I've changed and I'll prove it to amy. haha, I"m so in love. love love love.

just spent another wonderful night at his house. I brought him cake and muffins but he said he didn't wanna eat it yet cos he had a sore throat..when in actual fact he was scared that i would gobble it all up and leave none for him! hmm, more like he didn't wanna share!

and love grows where my rosemary goes,
and nobody know like me.

anyway, I shall stop jabbering nonstop about love and amy because I bet it makes people's hair stand.

me, jan, yiling, regina.

I curled my hair! but the curls didnt stay so i just ended up with hair that looked wavy and messy.

Love will come through, it's just waiting for you

I realise i sound like a schizo in my last 2 entries. One minute a raging girl who wants freedom, the next, a love sick puppy.

The truth be told, I was just being petty. I think he spoilt me so much over the past 7 months that I was blinded to all the wonderful things he did for me and was too focused on the negative. Well, that's all in the past. At least today, I have something to show for swallowing my pride and salty tears. -- I have a mended heart and puffy eyes.

Actually, for all those people who know me, they will know that it is out of character for me to swallow my pride or cry or try to patch up. I'm pretty nonchalant when it comes to breakups. I've never had a boyfriend who i actually loved and cared for. But everything's different this time round.... and I'm proud to say that I'm in love.

love lost

i take back whatever i said in my last entry.

I love him like a drug. He makes me happy. Without him, nothing i do ever seems right. Even though this seems like an exaggeration, i swear it is true. I was just lookig around my room and things that used to make me happy didn't. And I realised it's because i didn't have him to share my happiness with.

When i was with him, small things used to make me so happy until they took precedence over him. Now that he's gone, i realise that i didn't need anything to make me happy except him.

I've been the one at fault all along. I had no right to blame him for anything or accuse him of anything. If i look back on this relationship, i have no one to blame but myself. If only you guys could see how happy he tried to make me. How my happiness was the only thing that mattered to him...you would know how stupid I am for letting him go.

I guess it is true then. I am a fucking selfish bitch. It's just sad to know that i had to loose so much before i could realise the truth. I am not worthy of love.

does anyone out there understand how I feel?