and the collision of your kiss

Friday, September 30, 2005

my room

Tidied up my room and now, it looks something like this:

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

I think only jinnie will approve of my zebra throw =)

I've done my best to make it cosy and as home-mey as possible. Think i've done a pretty good job! =)

Thursday, September 29, 2005

:)

Things have been looking up! I feel much better now than I did a few days ago. There are the sudden bouts of depression, but at least now I have friends and people who make me laugh. Things are slowly falling into place.

I realised something tonight. A room with food is a happy room. Food is so important nowadays. I'm sick of eating biscuits and sandwhiches. I want to have hot piping meals ready at 7pm. :) hmm...if only marcuso was here. I'd be having terrific company and good food. I miss him, I'm in desperate need of some good warm hugs.

I haven't posted many pictures lately. Pictures of london and my room will be up soon!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

A friend?

I'm missing home more than ever now. I'm feeling really fucked up now. I want friends. I need friends I need people to talk to. Someone who is not a million miles away. I really don't know who I can make friends with. Everyone seems to be fitting in. I, on the hand, don't seem to fit in anywhere. I can't even fit in with the singaporeans, damn it. I don't even have 1 good frien i can talk to over here.

every night I'm just exhausted... a milion blank faces stare back at me when I close my eyes. I've met so many people, asked so many questions, but yet, none of them mattered enough for me to remember. i'm sick of complaining, I want to do something about it. I'll figure out something.

Monday, September 26, 2005

First day at bankside

Hey guys! just moved into bankside today! I love my room. Very bright and big. The only bad part is that it's facing construction. Oh well, can't have it all. I'm sharing my bathroom with a pakistan girl! *gasp*. Talked to her awhile ago and she's really cool and nice. I just went to the welcome party and I met so many different people from all over the world...pakistan, africa, australia, india, china, sweden, greece. This is a short entry cos I'm rushing to get the smell of cigarette smoke out of my hair!

Btw, my new handphone no is +44 (0)77 3828 2737.

Room no: +44 (0)870 036 6666.
the extention no is 22709

Hope to get some calls from you guys back home!

Pictures of bankside and my room will be up soon.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Happy birthday

Was walking along covent garden yesterday and suddenly this building came into view! ahhhh!!! SOMEBODY PINCH ME! i had no idea london had urban outfitters! I was practically hyperventilating when i went in,
Image hosted by Photobucket.com

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
oooooohh...it's got 3 levels. All the shops I've been into, so far, have a few levels. shoppers paradise *contented sigh*

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Tees...

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
There was a busker at covent garden. My sister said they're there all the time. haha, in this picture, he's using the pillar to help him get on top of that one wheel bicycle.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
went to watch "the women in white" at 'The Palace' after that. It's a really beautiful theatre. This picture doesn't do it justice. The play is really good as well. A few hair-raising moments though.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
After the musical, we went home and my sister & her house mates surprised me with a birthday cake! That's wesley in the picture. He made the cake! He's really tall too (1.9m). It's a sponge cake with chocolate and vanilla cream topped with chocolate covered strawberries :)

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Me with my cake!

Friday, September 23, 2005

Krispy Kreme

took the hour long journey to Harrods yesterday just ot buy krispy kreme!!! I've heard so much about it so I insisted on eating some.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
omg omg omg! harrods has the biggest selection of krispy kreme doughnuts.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Looks good huh?


Image hosted by Photobucket.com
can you see that the light at the back is on? This means that they are making doughnuts. Anyone who goes there while the light is on gets a free doughnut that's freshly made and hot!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Took this on the way home.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Jie and me on the bus home. I hate taking buses here. The roads are so jammed and the buses keep jerking forward and stopping. So, motion sickness is inevitable.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Bright lights, big city

I hear the ambulance siren so frequently here. I have heard it 3 times in the past 20 minutes. My sister just shrugged and said "it's like that in big cities...."

I still find it hard to accept that I'm in a big city now...and things are going to be so different.

London

Hey guys! In London now and, so far, it’s been great. The flight here was slightly rough and tiring but I’m well rested now. Haven’t done much, just moved in temporarily with my sister (staying in the spare room) and went to ‘Ye olde Cheshire cheese’ for dinner (pub food). The chocolate fudge cake with vanilla ice cream was so so so good

Oh my god, there’s a half naked man in the house opposite mine. There’s someone in the room with him and they just turned out the light. I can see the faint glow of his cigarette and he’s still at the window. I think he’s looking into my window…most probably he’s caught me looking. (maybe I will sleep in my sister’s room afterall)

Anyway, I miss home a lot. Everytime I message or talk to Amy, I’m in tears. I never realized how tough it is to be away from home. But I’m glad I have my sister here with me, I don’t know if I could stand it if she wasn’t.

Thanks to all those who sent me off at the airport and sent me well wishes. It meant a lot to me. Now, I just cling on to everything that reminds me of home. Presents, stuff toys, photos etc.

Now for some photos!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Best friends! (Jin! You must teach me to curl my hair when I get back!)

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Amy, Me, Jinnie, Zhiwei.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Clara, Me, Ziwei, Liangyuan. ( I was so shocked they came! But it was a great surprise)

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
My family..I miss them

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
The boyfriend and me

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
My pretty mummy

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Jie and I on the taxi to her house

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Holiday mood

I've been so exhausted the last few days from all the necessary shopping i've been doing. Plonked on my bed last night, slept like a log, and woke up in the same position I slept in. Feel fully recharged now and ready for another round of shopping!

I love the fact that I'm on holiday right now while the rest of singapore isn't. I have the whole of orchard road practically to myself while everyone's at work or school. I don't have to queue up to enter a dressing room or wait to pay at the cashier or jostle my way through a crowd or smell someone's pungent perfume.

Even though I know my holiday is going to end soon, it doesn't feel that way. It just feel as though I'm embarking on a new holiday. An adventure. I don't know how long the novelty of studying in London will last, but it feels good not to dread going back to school. I'm excited about attending lectures and classes, about deciding what option to take for my first year, about piecing together an essay.

This holiday has been wonderfully relaxing and all. But I miss having a purpose in life other than enjoyment and fun. I want to feel fulfilment from accomplishment, I want challenges to propel me forward and let me know what I'm capable of.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

cocoro

My all time favourite wafers.
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
It's is like the best thing ever!

Saturday, September 10, 2005

I have an excuse for shopping

I have been spending money like water these past few days. My netts card got rejected in zara today (just as I was gonna fork out a $100) and i have a sneaking suspicion that it's cos there's nothing left in my account. Oh boy. Oh help.

Oh well, at least I have an excuse. I was doing unavoidable shopping. I HAVE to get warm clothes if not i'll just freeze my butt off in class. I HAVE to get my medical checkup. I HAVE to get nice accessories and bags cos I am vain.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Give me a screwdriver

Today has been so long and gruelling. So many things have happened and each time, they knocked me off my feet (how I wish I had been swept off my feet). I was left at the end of it all with a bright red face, a pounding heart, and scarlet thoughts manifesting themselves in every crevice of my brain. There was even a point of time I wished I could be bigger so that I could contain all my anger and frustration within me. I've never allowed myself to be so emotional in public, as I've always relied on the silent comfort of my room to make me feel better. There's something so calming about lying under perfumed sheets with familiar white walls surrounding you. It draws such a comfort to me.

At the end of the day, I'm just glad that I had a special someone to turn to for comfort and support. But now he's gone, and I'm completely spent. There's only one thing left for me to do now and that's to rest my tired head on my pillow and let the night's gentle hum lull me to sleep.

To amy: Thanks for listening when no one else would.