Just because :)

it's 4.50 in the morning and I have a 9am lecture today. My body clock is so screwed up and i blame it on all my pent up anxiety. And maybe the cup of tea I had a few hours ago. Damn.

So, i've been surfing quite a few blogs over the past few hours (yah, i've got nothing else better to do in the wee hours of the night) and I've come to a conclusion that I HATE blogs that are emo especially those that don't explicitly say what the hell it is that making them sad/happy/etc, but instead beat about the bush without ever addressing whatever it is their emo-ing about head on. I'm fine with people expressing their feelings but why do they have to do it in a cryptic sort of way? It's just so annoying! What's the point of making a post public if you're gonna write in a mysterious, wanna-say-but-don't-wanna-say way?

Before you slam me and say "Ting...you used to do it all the time", wait. stop. don't say it. I know...but i've realised the folly of my ways and I will stop writing emo entries from now on. To be honest, I'd much rather read bimbotic entries on shopping and food than to pour through an entire entry on how the life isn't fair that's phrased in flowery language. Oh my gawd...kill me now.

Anyway, I do realise that I need to spice up my blog a little by adding some photos/videos but I haven't been taking any so you guys will have a wait a bit. I've been too preoccupied over applications and interviews to be in the mood to prance around taking photos. I realise that whenever my blog is flooded with photographs, I'm in one of the happier stages of my life. Look what applications have done to me! I'm a shadow of my former self!

Speaking of applcations, I've been letting out all my frustrations on poor little marcus. Nowadays he never speaks of anything job related in fear that I will launch into one of my 45 minute self-pitying sessions about how stressed I am. But it's true!!!! I'm stressed and I can't hide it! By the way, interview coming up this Tuesday...eeks. But I'm not freaking out yet, I'll leave that till Monday.

Oh man..it's 5.10am now and I'm still not sleepy! Should I go on typing or should I try closing my eyes and lie really still in bed? Ok, i'll try sleeping...if i come back with a second post, you'll know what happened. toodles!

I'm currently sitting by the phone, waiting for my grandmother to call me so i can wish her happy birthday. I've lost track of exactly how old she is but i think that's fine...i don't think she expects us to remember.

Anyway, Marcus is coming up in 2 weeks! I'm terribly excited!! Now when I walk along the streets and I see nice places, I make a mental note to myself to bring him there. I recently found alot of nice restaurants along tottenham court road and I can't wait to bring him there to try.

I've signed him up for a hall as well and I had to subject myself to the nasty receptionist's stares and annoyed looks. Oh my God, what's up with London and their CRABBY receptionists?! Seriously! there's something horribly wrong with them. When I was in bankside, I was scolded by the receptionist a countless number of times. One time, it was over a stupid door stopper. I swore never again will I ever tolerate people being so rude to me and today, it happened again. Here's what happened, I was asking her questions about when I will be able to move in and she just shoved an application form in my face without answering my question. And while I was filling out the form, i casually repeated my question and she just slammed shut the glass screen in front of her! grrr. THEN, when i finished with the form, i opened the screen door and repeated my question for the third time and she said "i'll call you" and slammed it shut again! IF I DIDN'T NEED THE ROOM SO BAD I WOULDN'T HESITATE TO SCREAM AT HER AND SMASH HER BLOODY GLASS SCREEN. I think that stupid piece of glass gives her a power trip or something.

But hopefully Marcus likes that place and all my tolerating will be worth it. Bloody receptionist from hell....

Hmmm....my grandmother still hasn't called...so i shall continue rambling on.

I think all these applications and interviews really teach you how to be patient and the art of waiting. I'm alot more calm today than i was the past few days. Thanks Jie for comforting me =) Study hard so we can go to hare&tortoise this weekend! hahaa

So I finally managed to do nothing the entire weekend. I didn't touch a single piece of work or worry about upcoming interviews. I just plonked myself on my couch, bundled myself up in a thick soft blanket and poured through storybooks while munching on the new year goodies my mom sent me. I think I only got out of that couch to use the toilet. That's life huh?

I've been sacrificing so much over these past few weeks that I just needed a weekend devoted to doing absolutely nothing. But tomororw, i've got to start worrying about how I haven't done my finance homework, or any homework for that matter. Oh drats, i just remembered I was supposed to clean the toilet this weekend. Nevermind, I'll do everything tomorrow.